Been very neglectful of my Blog ): need more hours in my day!
Please Note: if you are not into muscle/fat weight gain, then this is not the blog for you.
Since my last post I have grown somewhat :D now tipping 111kg (244.7lbs). That's 49kg (108lbs) above my lowest weight ever. Gosh!
Physically:
My clothes are noticeably tighter, very tight actually. Its winter here so with the added padding of thick warm clothes I look positively huge! Sitting now, its resting warm and heavy on my lap. I'm constantly aware of it, its big, round and heavy too so pretty hard to ignore. I've started wearing body shapers every day to try to keep it from sagging (I prefer the high, rounded look). And I wear my waistbands under my belly too (besides, I can't get them done up over my belly).
Mentally:
Strange as it may seem to others, I'm thoroughly enjoying the sensation of having this rather large belly. It is a substantial belly at that. I know many people out there think gaining is a twisted way of attracting attention. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, so here's mine: if I'm feeling happy about my body, that's a good thing right? I've been thin before, I had to starve myself to get there and stay there. I remember being hungry all the time and when I'm hungry I'm moody. My body seems to easily maintain a constant weight at 100kg (220lbs). Any lower and I need to keep fighting the weight down. I may or may not lose weight in the future. Right now, I'm satisfied with my progress and celebrating being a big girl. :D
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You seem to have disappeared from the web almost entirely. I hope everything's okay. I hope you're not gone for good. If so, thank you for sharing with us.
ReplyDeleteIt would be great for an update I'd love to see something of you from this year
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